Oh... God.

What do you say to a close friend when they tell you that they're dying? Do you tell them that everything will be ok, even though you both know that's not true? Do you try to convince them that they'll make it through somehow, even though they've had four heart attacks and two seizures? How do you, yourself, cope with it and not let them see how upset you are?

These are questions I'm asking myself right now. Questions that I can't even begin to answer, but somehow I must.

A good friend of mine told me that in August of 2008, she was told she had a few years left if she took care of herself. She is twenty-two years old and has been fighting cancer since she was four.

How do I respond to her telling me that. How do I tell her how much she meant to me, as my best friend in college, without sounding all doom and gloom. How do I tell her I want to spend more time with her, especially when I know, I know, she's not due to be coming back from Korea for another year?

I've lost so many good friends and family to cancer. And every time it makes it harder. I don't want to lose one of my only true friends to this terrible disease... She doesn't deserve to suffer like that.