Our Heads Just Might Explode One Day...

I don't understand it. I trust him, I love him, I give him everything he wants or needs and... I find out he's cheating. How does that work out??? I have his phone cause he's in the hospital right now. I'm at work and his phone starts ringing. I pull it out to see it's his "friend" Katelyn, but can't answer cause I'm working. She sends a text message immediately after saying hey.

I reply back with: Hi. I'm sorry, but kevin is in the hospital and they won't let him have his phone... I'm his fiance. Do you want me to let him know that you called?

I get back: hi is he ok and i did not kno he had a fiance

I reply: He is ok for the most part. And yea. We're planning for sometime this week depending on when he gets out. He didn't tell you?

I eventually get a reply asking me to pick up the phone. Apparently it's Katelyn's friend calling to tell me that Katelyn has been dating Kevin for six months. I blew a hole through that considering he only got out of prison in mid-to-late January. And the fact I've been spending so much fucking time with him.

But I mean... I trust him... But he's cheated on me in the past. And he met her through an ad he placed on craigslist. But I've also seen him write and e-mail telling her that he had a girlfriend. And his facebook says that he's engaged to me for christ's sake and she's his friend on facebook. I just don't know what to think right now.

Life Goes Round Like A Merry Go Round...

Sorry I haven't updated. My birthday sucked, work sucks, my love life doesn't technically suck, my boyfriend is in the hospital, oh! AND! the eb popo stole my phone.

Kev's Grandmother made me cry not once but three times on my birthday.

I got my passes suspended at work because the drawer for box office was $25.75 short, but! I wasn't the only person who used that drawer. Two other cashiers and both managers used it.

Kevin. God. Thursday was a mess. Someone called the cops on Kevin saying he was suicidal, because he had been trying to cross route 18 drunk and he fell... They showed up while I was with him. He had a bunch of bebe guns. They took the bebe guns, searched my car, my purse, me. Stole my phone. Took him to Robert Wood Johnson and wouldn't let me go in the ambulance with him. I had to find my own way there and when I got there they wouldn't let me see or talk to him. He was scared and drunk and confused and they wouldn't let me in there to calm him down.

Yesterday was hobbit's graduation. I'm proud of her.

They transferred Kevin to UMDNJ and gave him the option of signing in or being committed. So he signed himself in. Which is good. I got to see him for 2 hours. I needed more time though. He gave me a great big hug when I got there and wouldn't let me go. It was good to hold him and tell him I loved him.